Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Empty inbox and (un)inspiration

I'm sitting here at work, with an empty personal inbox and a full work inbox... completely uninspired to work. Luckily my position allows me to get work done at my own pace, as long as I meet my own deadlines. Really, I am ready for a new job. This is just a temporary desk job at a private college that pays well, but isn't anywhere close to enough hours. It was fine while I was in school, but now it's a bit frustrating as the part-time hours make the unfilled hours fairly difficult to get through. I like to be busy, but not TOO busy, and I like to feel like I am doing something important... sometimes, when I help a student out and they are actually appreciative, then I do feel like I'm contributing to the bettering of someone's life. But honestly, those moments are few and far between. Today, I had a really great stranger on the phone who offered me a place to stay in Tokyo (where he lives) for helping him out. It was super nice and although it might sound creepy, I assure you, it was not.

The rain here is relentless ever since I returned from a trip late last month. I still fear talking about details on here, because I don't want to be discovered. I envy those bloggers who write their hearts out without fear of being discovered. That is self-assurance at it's best, and maybe as I become more comfortable with blogging, I might feel the same absence of worry. Until then, I feel like I will probably type out some rambly posts in moments like this where I'm unsure of what else I should do.

My boyfriend came over last night for dinner and we played cards with my roommate. It reminded me of those times growing up when the power would go out and we'd have old-fashioned family fun. It was really nice, and although we've been together for nine months (wow wow wow- this is a record for me)- I feel like I fall for him harder each time we see each other. Of course, there are things I could do without... such as the jokes about other women which I am trying to handle gracefully, but which are not always easy to handle, given the behaviour of my ex boyfriend. Perhaps I will write about him on the next post, for now I should try to respond to a few emails and get on with my day.

Idaho Sapphire

Monday, May 31, 2010

Welcoming myself to the blog world

Welcome, self! 

I have begun and discontinued a handful of blogs in the past 5ish years. I've always been fascinated by the idea of maintaining a blog and connecting with the wonderful blog community, but I always made the mistake of identifying myself to my "real life" friends. I know a lot of bloggers who don't think twice about their lack of anonymity, but it's bothersome to me, because one of the reasons I come here is to escape my own "real" world. What if I want to say something that I don't want my entire hometown to know about? So, I will maintain a certain degree of anonymity here... Hopefully no one will be able to figure out who I am, but if they do, so be it. I don't plan on divulging any gigantic secrets on here, as I'm a pretty open person, but it will be nice to write as openly as I do in my journal without worrying about censoring myself to please others... 

So, here we go. I do not have a *thing* like other bloggers do. I'm not a food blogger, I'm not a craft blogger, I'm not a mommy blogger, I'm not a student blogger. I'm just me, a regular old blogger. Hopefully I will have some interesting things to say on some topics you are interested in. How's that for simple? I'll always be up for suggestions and constructive criticism, so if you have something to say, say it! 

Thanks for reading:)